Monday, September 25, 2017

BELUM REZEKI

Dear Dad,


i don't know to express this
but i'm kind of upset

when people keep asking
"bila nak kerja melaka"
"bila nak pindah melaka"

if only they can really fit into my shoes

i've been workingmy ass off even before married
finding job whole melaka
until now

it's tiring
every single week
drove back there after work

i'm almost broke every month
for fuel and toll expenses


i didn't mean to babbling here.

God knows how glad i am having greatest husband on earth
God know how happy i am having the most sporting husband in life


but
if only people out there can understand
we're having hard time here
please don't build up more wall in our way.

i'm down


Monday, September 18, 2017

1 YEAR AND COUNTING

Dear Dad,

it's been a year i'm married.
i've all kind of feeling throughout these day.
so many things i've learn.


can't really tell you
i want to
but i don't know how.


in nutshell,
for me
being a wife, it's inevitably in a middle of heaven and hell
menjadi isteri, seperti berada diantara pintu syurga dan neraka

i.e
any words you throw might please husband - syurga
any words you throw might hurt his feeling - neraka


nahhhh
that's just simple thought from me.

wish me luck dad

in becoming greatest wife for him.


i miss you.


Assalamualaikum.